Delicate Boy

I fell back to the earth And then a little lower I flew to the clouds And then a little higher Nothing I do is done in discretion I don't want love, I want an obsession I know what I say may scare you away But delicate boy, let me love you my way You painted so pure, I ache so bad But your sting can never abate my fang Delicate boy, please show me your way If I try too hard, I know I will stray I've been told that I'm shameless, been told that I'm cruel Been told by the same that I'm just a fool But when a girl says she can't handle a man A girl like me has already began Tell me delicate boy just where have you been Dressed up to sink in your swallowtail skin Left a deep water blackout swallowed See, I'll cradle you like a clouded apollo You delicate boy how I want you so Can't think my next move is where you wanna go But I dream of you when I sleep Oh, suck me dry, don't leave me be Delicate boy, please show me your way If I try too hard, I know I will stray I want you so bad, it's for you I bleed I've been learning a new way to breathe If I can do good by you, I'll be a queen I'll get it right, but it's all just for me Baby, I'll make you the best you can be I'll get what I want and give you what you need Spun a tornado under your tongue Chased off the dust, set off like a gun I've never said sorry, I never regret I never take back anything I have said You wouldn't say those things if you knew my head. You wouldn't say those things if you knew my head. Cuz when I go crazy, I go every way I paint with my blood, I pray with my prey Thick and sweet, molasses and honey Blood like a syrup, blood for your money If I could buy anything, I'd buy you Keep you all to myself, keep it just us two Yeah, if I could buy anything, I'd buy you But until then diamonds will just have to do You delicate boy, how I'll beg you to stay Unhook the heavens, paint the sky gray To shame me for more than I ever conspired Makes you as bright as much as you a liar You delicate boy, please show me your faith Memorize your words, I remember your face I tried to be gentle, I tried to be nice It comes down to the call I cannot think twice You love to behave kindly so cruelly Yes, you love danger, yes, you love beauty True, they're known to go hand in hand But it's only one that can love you right back I've never been known for my self-control It isn't love I want more than a soul To keep safe, sure you're never cold Make sure I'm the one that you need the most But I can't be heartless No, that can't be true Not if I was the one To take yours from you Felt the beat of its beast Drip past my chin I felt it deep down Underneath my skin Fear of forgetting, of being forgotten Rather think twice than be misbegotten I can't bear to mean nothing to you I'll have to be all I am to you You can never say that I wasn't true. You can never say that I wasn't true. Nothing I do is done in discretion I don't want love, I want an obsession I know what I say may scare you away But delicate boy, let me love you my way “This is a persona poem. The persona of an utterly INSANE woman lusting after a man. The biggest irony is that he is not delicate, she [the narrator] is. She is projecting her own fragility onto him, her own passion is volatile but she projects this nature onto him. It is the farthest thing from romantic. He has absolutely no role in her emotions, he is a plaything to her, objectified in a mixture of passions and confusions misnamed as love. She doesn't understand how it can be anything but love because of how often what isn't love is called love. The admiration turns to desire, the desire increases in objectification, and the plaything to her is seemingly either unwilling to too willing; either displeases her because she does not want to be pleased, she is fulfilled by the game itself. It's simply about the dynamics of the game in every sense: the emotional and sexual has always been political. It's all about the underlying confusions that make the most pure feelings, such as lust, so clouded. I also have a really distinct melody to this. I would love to perform it as a song, even with only an occasional guitar riff.” November 26th, 2010